Easter

Yesterday was ok. I had wholemeal pasta with various veg. I got peckish later on and had some dates. All in all a good day.

Today I have my usual breakfast of weetabix with raisins. Lunch was my grans homemade potatoes cakes. She comes up on a friday. She again was going on about weight but I just busied myself with other things. I wasn;t going to let it affect me today.

We are having tuna salad with new potaoes for tea. I am looking forward to it actually.

I usually go to aqua aerobics on a Tuesday eve but we have missed for two weeks for one reason or another. Hopefully we will be back to it this week!

I will weigh in on Sunday- although without my aerobic this week I don;'t know if I will have lost. I am hping controlling my food intake will have some effect.

I dont do enough exercise. 1 hour aqua aerobics is not enough.. better than nothin at all.. but still not enough. Trouble is i HATE exercise!! More than that- i loathe it! I tried the gym but find it soooo boring on the bikes and treadmil. Plus i had to walk 20 mins to get there. By that time the last thing i wanted to do was hop on a treadmill! I did enjoy the weights though.

If it wasn;t for my friend calling for me on a tuesday, i doubt I would even make aqua! I need someone to literally take my hand with exercise. I need to find something else to do in the week- any takers?!??

I am not looking forward to Easter Sunday. Already eggs are appearing here for Emily despite telling various relatives to send money or a t-shirt instead. It is such a temptation. Not only do I not want to stuff my face, I also dont want Emily to gorge on chocolate either. Trouble is- the temptation will be there until it is all gone! She has several eggs here already and has others at her dads house I am told.

I dont want her to do without at Easter.. just one would be enough! Does that make me mean??

SO the problem is- do I allow myself some chocolate or do I ignore it and crave it? If I allow myself will I loose control and gorge on it?! If I crave it will I just give in anyway?

I doubt my self control.

I am aware that I am just rambling on my internal thoughts here so I will stop writing for now!!!

Much love

xx